teknotus means Take Notice

For more than a week I hung out with friends practically every day. I was happy much of the time, and that was a first since my mom died. Then all the attention dried up, and I have been feeling pretty alone, and sad. I'm scared that I will get so desperate for attention that I will start driving people away again like I used to do years ago. I thought I was all over that, but I guess being happy, and confident can be a fragile thing. I'm hoping this is just a momentary crisis, and I will go back to being my new improved self within a few days. There are things on the horizon that could change my life dramatically. This is both potentially very scary, and potentially exciting. Grieving feels like self destruction, but really it is reconstruction. Rebuilding ones life after something horrible forces a change.

Anyone want to hang out, and do something? I'm broke so I'm mostly interested in things like hiking on trails, bike rides, frisbee, board games, movies etc. Or at least those are the first things that come to mind. I wonder why most of them are sports. For the moment I am up for hanging out with anyone for pretty much any reason with some limits. I won't mow your lawn for free, and if you need help moving I expect a meal.