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Jun. 6th, 2005 | 02:41 am
mood: blahblah

A few minutes ago I was happy that someone had added me as a friend, and that I was going to add them back, and have one more mutual friend on my info. Not something I would usually mention, but something that makes me a little bit happy. This time though the number stayed the same. Someone must have removed me at just about the same moment that I added someone to the list. Otherwise I probably wouldn't have even noticed, as I'm not in the habit of watching my numbers anymore. I wouldn't have brought it up if there wasn't a bigger issue involved. I don't want to be all dramatic about who lists who as a friend like I used to. The thing is though that I haven't been good with keeping up friendships in a long time. I just saw one of my best friends yesterday for the first time in like 5 months. I used to see him like every other week, and now this is the best I can manage. He is on the short list of friends comfortable enough with me to have asked me if I wanted to be his roommate. A really close friend. Now for people who I mostly only know from online, and I hardly ever talk to even there it isn't surprising to me that some of them feel detached from me, and like there isn't much of a friendship to hang on to. I'm sorry about that. I've never been that great about being friends with anyone. I tend to either give way too much attention to the point that people want to push me away, or I am too scared to talk to them, and they don't hear from me in a long time.

So anyone feel like hanging out? I'll do what you feel like doing at long as it doesn't cost too much money, or cause my girlfriend jealousy. Someone has got to be board at some point in the next week, and feel like hanging out. Oh, and this includes people I haven't met before, well really person, because most of the people who read this who I don't know live in other states, and travel to other states would violate my "not costing too much" clause.

Now I have to consider if I am going to even write about yesterday being how much I have written already. I guess I will hold off till later.

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Daniel Patrick Johnson

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from: teknotus
date: Jun. 13th, 2005 08:16 am (UTC)

I should just get there sooner so the best seats aren't already taken.

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