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Jan. 25th, 2005 | 06:15 am
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Catherine went home over a week ago, and the program I wrote that generated this image is about all I have to show for my time since then. The program doesn't do much, and it has no interface so I can't make it do anything different without completely recompiling it. Writing code makes me feel better. I feel like I might actually accomplish goals I set out to do years ago. Maybe people will take notice of me. I want to feel important. Catherine is the only person who does that for me, and so when she is not here the natural thing for me to do seems to be to work on things that make me feel more useful. I find the idea of making tools for other people to use especially seductive. Once someone told me in a newsgroup that a little script I made saved him a weeks worth of work, and that made me happy for days.

I should be trying to get a job, and I should be finding out what I need to get into school, but so far in my life neither of those things have ever been something I am good at. I only succeed when it is almost a sure thing.

Only a few things have fairly consistently managed to make me feel better in the last week. Talking to Catherine, eating pizza, watching my nearly complete Stargate DVD collection, and sleeping. None of those has really done much to help me see Catherine again. I'm worried that she will get tired of waiting for me, and try to move on. I need something to get me really moving forward again.

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from: nattiecakes
date: Feb. 2nd, 2005 09:19 am (UTC)

Yo d00d.

This is teh NATALIE, teh friend of caterlyn~
You will remember me 'cuz I hate Evangelion <3

I'm up at 3:00 AM 'cause I can't sleep so I'm browsing LJs, and I was like, hey, I'll read caterlyn's boy's LJ.

Anyway, move to Austin prz. From what catherine tells me about Portland, you would probably like Austin. Also, then maybe caterlyn would move to Austin and OMG I would get to see her lots more.

Plus there are several schools in Austin

and teh SHITLOAD of vegetarian restaurants that are supposedly really good (I wouldn't know for certain because I'm teh carnivore)

Austin is also the tech mecha of Texas, so you could probably find a job

Austin is very liberal and has good public transportation (though not as good as Portland)

There are good PARKS with BIG DUCKS and SWANS and a river everyone swims in; the GEESE will BITE YOUR FEET if you don't feed them fast enough ;_;

Rent here is fairly cheap some places 'cause of all the college students; my bf and I pay a total of $585/month for a surprisingly not-very-ghetto apartment, and there are cheaper ones elsewhere

plz move 2 Austin

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from: teknotus
date: Feb. 3rd, 2005 01:56 am (UTC)

Hi d00dette.

I added you to my friends list. Catherine links to to what you write all the time anyways.

I would like it if you unbanned me from AIM, and told me more about the wonders of Austin.

We have a few rivers too, but people don't go swimming in them much in the Portland area. Well I guess some of the slower moving smaller pretty ones have swimmers in the summer. The Columbia mostly only gets windsurfers/kiteboarders in the water, and all of them wear wetsuits/drysuits. Cathrine didn't believe me that what I pointed to was a white swan.

While Catherine was here we picked my friend up at the airport where he had just gotten back from Austin, where he had been doing business with Dell. He was working on some kind of plan for them that seemed fairly morally bankrupt, but I guess a lot of big business is like that.

Do you ever have friends telling you about how they saw the founder of Linux shopping at Fry's Electronics (the one I used to work at no less)? Perhaps you have other technology visionaries that you see around town?

Catherine says Houston > Austin, and that I should move to Houston.

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