I should get to know who she is a little. But her shift ends before it gets slow, so I won't have much time to chat. I don't even know if we have anything in common. I will interview her the first chance I get. If we have a few important things in common the race will be on. She has been side jacking with Brad two days in a row as part of her training. Brad is already talking about bringing her flowers.
She is not a prize though she is a person. Brad will be the one treating things like that if either of us do. I should know better than to try to become what someone wants. I should be what I am, and they will either like me, or they won't. Prizes don't have feelings people do.
It hurts a bit when someone you care about doesn't feel the same way about you. It happens to me a lot. Perhaps even always. But when you get hung up on someone who doesn't want you it doesn't help things any.
I just want to love somebody who loves me too. (Romantically I mean)