1. A new job. A job that I quit because it became hell. Now I am unemployed.
2. Moving out of my parents house. My roomates bothered me, and I ran out of money to continue living there. I live with my parents again.
3. I got back into school, and dropped out again already.
4. New friends. Now I hardly ever hang out with them. It is so sad.
I was feeling so overwelmed by what I am going to have to do to fix all of that. I was feeling stress to the point that I couldn't do what needs to be done to resolve these issues. Without working on them I am stuck where I am. I felt worthless. I didn't have the streangth to work on a job application. I don't want to be trapped in my current situation.
A friend pulled me out of it. She said something like "You are letting too much of your sense of self worth depend on your place in life rather than who you are as a person".
Some quick thoughts.
YOU ARE NOT YOUR JOB!
YOU ARE NOT YOUR CAR!
YOU ARE NOT YOUR PLACE OF RESIDENCE!
YOU ARE NOT YOUR EDUCATION!
I feel better now.