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Jul. 1st, 2002 | 04:05 am
mood: hopefulhopeful
music: Dirty Vegas(yes I actually turned off the TV)

I wasn't really up for the day until 5PM. All week I was up late, and I am not really sure why. It caught up to me with a vengence. My supervisor is afaid that he is going to get fired, so he is resorting to tactics that he is against to encourage me to improve my performance. I have wanted better stats so that I could get promoted to a position that doesn't care about stats, it is so stupid, and ironic. I will try again, even though I think the effort will be futle. He is my favorite, of all the supervisors I have had there. Ben I am not saying that I like Brandon better, you haven't been My supervisor so I am not compairing you two.

Rin is getting married... Wow! If anyone in the world deserves to be happy she does. Right now I just want to give her a hug, and wish her the best. She was part of a dream that has already proved to be prophetic. A dream that has shaped my life for a while. A dream caused by a wish made in a singularly remarkable moment. I did not realize how remarkable that moment was until the dream. I didn't relize how remarable the dream was until a few days after the second dream a peice of it came true. A terible thing happend. So terrible that I wanted to cancel my wish so that it wouldn't happen. A wish is like a spark that starts a fire though. I think the flames are surounding me. Soon there will be no escape route. I don't know that I want one anymore. It seems to change everyone it touches for the better. When will it be my turn?

I ended up arriving at DTV running from something. I have not told many people about. Actually I don't know if anyone knows the full story. Probably not. The people I have met there have changed my view of the world. Especially Meagan, Peter, Rin, and Amber. I think that they are all my friends now, but I do so little with them that I am not always sure. Even though two have told me specifically that they are.

Rin is getting married

Something big is happening with Meagan, but I think it is a secret of sorts still, and I am not supposed to know so I say nothing.

Ambers long frustration seems to be subsiding. Better yet things seem to be sugar coated when it comes to her love.

Peter is quitting tech support for good he says. He is going back to school.

I will be the only one left here. I had never made a friend before at a job. Now so many people seem to like me. It is beyond my expirience.

Life has certainly been changing a lot for me this last year. I want my dream to finish comming true. I need more patience. I don't know that it ever will come true. It was a dream after all. I gave up on magick a long time ago for the most part. It took years longer than it took me to give up on believing in GOD. But some of my faith came back because of one person. I wanted to beleive again. Because of that person I made my wish. And my desire for my wish to be fulfilled has infected most of my actions since then. Really you have to work hard for most wishes. I need to work more. My wish is one that can't come true without my acheiving something I don't think has ever been done. It seems so hopeless at times, but I know that otherwise I won't be truely happy. Not ever. I have tears in my eyes right now as I write this.

It was just a wish. Why does it mean so much?

I will try to work on it tomorrow...

I Wish...

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from: monkeyhole
date: Jul. 1st, 2002 08:55 pm (UTC)

Well, Dan... I definately think of you as a friend. I surely think of you as more of a friend than the great majority of people I work with here at DTV. I don't want you to think that you will never see or speak with me after I quit this job. We'll be able to do more FUN THINGS once I quit, because we won't have to worry about schedules that don't match up. I have already had many people here at DTV tell me that they will find me and kill me if I don't keep in touch, so don't worry -- I'm not good at keeping in touch with people, but THAT WILL CHANGE. You and I have too many things to do... you've gotta come play LAN games with me, gotta go to OMSI, gotta let me come play on the trampoline.

It's official now, though. Put in my two week's notice yesterday. My last day will be July 14th. Then I am FREE of this horrible HELL known as tech support. Bigger and better things are waiting for me, and I finally have the guts to do the work needed to get there. Wish me luck :)

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