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May. 30th, 2006 | 11:48 pm

For more than a week I hung out with friends practically every day. I was happy much of the time, and that was a first since my mom died. Then all the attention dried up, and I have been feeling pretty alone, and sad. I'm scared that I will get so desperate for attention that I will start driving people away again like I used to do years ago. I thought I was all over that, but I guess being happy, and confident can be a fragile thing. I'm hoping this is just a momentary crisis, and I will go back to being my new improved self within a few days. There are things on the horizon that could change my life dramatically. This is both potentially very scary, and potentially exciting. Grieving feels like self destruction, but really it is reconstruction. Rebuilding ones life after something horrible forces a change.

Anyone want to hang out, and do something? I'm broke so I'm mostly interested in things like hiking on trails, bike rides, frisbee, board games, movies etc. Or at least those are the first things that come to mind. I wonder why most of them are sports. For the moment I am up for hanging out with anyone for pretty much any reason with some limits. I won't mow your lawn for free, and if you need help moving I expect a meal.

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The World's Sexiest Killing Machine

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from: notorious_oit
date: May. 31st, 2006 10:24 pm (UTC)
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You'll have to come visit me when I move to Corvallis. I'll make you delicious enchiladas for dinner.

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Daniel Patrick Johnson

Corvallis

from: teknotus
date: May. 31st, 2006 10:57 pm (UTC)
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How soon are you moving?

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The World's Sexiest Killing Machine

Re: Corvallis

from: notorious_oit
date: Jun. 1st, 2006 02:03 am (UTC)
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I'm moving on 6/21. Moving sucks.

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Daniel Patrick Johnson

Re: Corvallis

from: teknotus
date: Jun. 1st, 2006 02:49 am (UTC)
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I didn't know you liked SG1. It's my favorite show. I have the first 6 seasons on DVD!

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The World's Sexiest Killing Machine

Re: Corvallis

from: notorious_oit
date: Jun. 1st, 2006 02:54 pm (UTC)
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I don't own a tv, so the only time I ever get to watch it is when I go to Greg's parents' house.

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Daniel Patrick Johnson

Re: Corvallis

from: teknotus
date: Jun. 2nd, 2006 08:44 am (UTC)
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It's probably better to not have a TV. TV adds just seem to tell me that I'm not good enough because I don't own their product. If I could watch the shows without the commercials I would.

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The World's Sexiest Killing Machine

Re: Corvallis

from: notorious_oit
date: Jun. 2nd, 2006 02:07 pm (UTC)
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Dude, that's what TIVO is for, or a TV tuner card, then you can record video and baleet the product whoration.

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Daniel Patrick Johnson

Re: Corvallis

from: teknotus
date: Jun. 3rd, 2006 03:23 am (UTC)
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When I can afford to build a MythTV box I'm so doing it.

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snarble

Re: Corvallis

from: snarble
date: Jun. 2nd, 2006 04:24 pm (UTC)
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i'll trade you my tivo for your hdtv tuner :P

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Daniel Patrick Johnson

Re: Corvallis

from: teknotus
date: Jun. 3rd, 2006 03:23 am (UTC)
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My HDTV tuner only works in Linux!

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snarble

Re: Corvallis

from: snarble
date: Jun. 3rd, 2006 09:37 am (UTC)
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i know
i need it for my mythtv box

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