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The girl next cube

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Jun. 7th, 2002 | 03:03 am
mood: enthralledenthralled
music: Blissful silence

There is a new tech in the cube farm, and she is hot. The moment I saw her my heart skipped a beat. I barly even know her name. I do know that she will be sitting in the next cube though. The best looking new hire since I started working at DTV, and I luck out with having her sit next to me. Or perhaps there was a helping hand involved... (I don't mean God, I mean someone who put her there because of me)

I should get to know who she is a little. But her shift ends before it gets slow, so I won't have much time to chat. I don't even know if we have anything in common. I will interview her the first chance I get. If we have a few important things in common the race will be on. She has been side jacking with Brad two days in a row as part of her training. Brad is already talking about bringing her flowers.

She is not a prize though she is a person. Brad will be the one treating things like that if either of us do. I should know better than to try to become what someone wants. I should be what I am, and they will either like me, or they won't. Prizes don't have feelings people do.

It hurts a bit when someone you care about doesn't feel the same way about you. It happens to me a lot. Perhaps even always. But when you get hung up on someone who doesn't want you it doesn't help things any.

I just want to love somebody who loves me too. (Romantically I mean)

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Dj Psyke

You will...

from: dj_girl
date: Jun. 7th, 2002 12:47 pm (UTC)
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I have faith that you will find someone who has just right!

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Daniel Patrick Johnson

Re: You will...

from: teknotus
date: Jun. 7th, 2002 01:31 pm (UTC)
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I don't understand this faith thing other people seem to have so much of. The validvictorian (I think she was) of my highschool wrote in my yearbook that I would save the world some day. My math teacher wrote that I would figure out some math that he would end up teaching...

And now you say that I will end up with a girlfriend someday. People seem to have imposibly high hopes for me. I'm just me. I'm no superhero. I go to work, I go home, I sleep. I'm not happy with a job that other people desparetly want. It's an OK job, but it doesn't suit me. I'm not happy with my social life. I do stuff with people, but usually I have to call other people to find out that something is happening, I have to get myself invited. I'm not happy with my hobbies either. I usually don't seem to have the effort to get started with them. I'm not happy with my body, I used to be skinny, now I'm not. I'm not cute. Girls don't want me.

I'm just not happy with who I am, and I am usually just plain not happy.

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Daniel Patrick Johnson

She doesn't date coworkers

from: teknotus
date: Jun. 7th, 2002 09:34 pm (UTC)
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Well it's not like I won't get fired anyways. Besides she wore a skirt today, and she lost massive points for that.

She appeals to my male instincts, but I think that she probably does not have a compatible personality. Brad is going to be in for heartache, but what can I do. He never had a chance.

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